I'm @ Peace

So I, along w/ the rest of America, am reading Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth. I'm barely into the 2nd or 3rd chapter, but I've had to embrace a step-by-step approach w/ this book. It's so involved. It's so transforming. Amazingly, it's been somewhat of a bible for me. It's been ironic that as I've experienced day-to-day encounters, struggles, triumphs, & life lessons, I've been able to open the book on the page I last read & receive a message directly related to whatever I was experiencing @ that moment.

I've been very emotional & unsettled these past couple weeks. & the majority of this turmoil is related to someone that was in my life only a few months ago. As I read A New Earth last night, I decided to fully embrace Eckhart's observation in which he said that most of us are not @ peace b/c we're too busy blaming a situation or a person for our unhappiness. & while I didn't believe I was blaming this person for any unhappiness that I'd experienced these past couple weeks, I realized that this person was directly related to the turmoutuous feelings that I was experiencing. So, in a state of total consciousness & transformation, I decided to declare peace w/ this person. Just like an affirmation provided by some random self-help class, I declared, "I am at peace w/ ____."

I then began to determine what other areas I was unsettled w/ in my life. I determined that I was unsettled w/ my career & myself. My career is somewhat easy to grasp or understand. But myself... I realized that I was unsettled w/ myself b/c here I am in the midst of improvment, yet I'm so focused on the next plateau that I've forgotten to appreciate who I am now. I forgot to enjoy who I am now. B/c who I am now, is not who I was two & three months ago. So, I realized that I can no longer hold who I am now accountable for the actions of who I was months ago. I can't continue to judge & punish that person. That person is undoubtedly still a part of me, but has been defeated by who I have become & will continue to become. Amazing how it's harder to forgive ourselves than it is to forgive someone else....